You make me so...

I used to get sooo angry when people did things that didn't fit into my plans for an ideal world... i.e. everything. And so, I was always angry. I'd cover it up well, though. I'd smile and laugh with all my friends and go home and rant at my wife and spank the kids. They tell me I gave them all whippings once because no one would tell me who'd left the towel on the bathroom floor. Well, it's the principle. I'd always say if they'd just admit it, there wouldn't be a problem. But no one ever would. Hm. Wonder why.

Now, whenever I get angry, I wonder why. I step back and examine the situation objectively. I've read that I'm never upset about what I think I'm upset about, and it usually proves true, if I can face it. It's not always pretty. For example, I've realized that when my sister does something I find offensive, it's because I feel like I'm not in control. (Well, she does love to see how many licks it takes to get to the chewy center of my lollipop.) But if I remember who I am... a glorious child of the universe... I can let her play her games without its affecting me. I realize she feels small and wants to feel bigger than someone, so she focuses her attention on me. Needlesstosay, I choose not to be around that, so she does her machinations off camera, now.

People will always be doing things other than what we think is right and good and correct, so we can either be angry always, or learn to deal. Forgiveness goes a long way, and I've realized that I have to keep forgiving some people (most people) cuz they just keep doing things differently than I think they should, dangit! But if I focus on the person I can forgive them, for they don't know what they're doing. Or, they're doing the best they know how (don't we all?).



Yours,

D



P.S. And everyone knows, now, that no one makes anyone else angry, we do it all ourselves...right?