one line

in a movie altered my perspective....
i hate that.
i was totally prepared
to dislike this person
for the rest of my life
and actually didn't see
myself changing my mind
ever.

The Tourist,
which was a fun movie, btw,
even though i figured out the plot
midway through,
plucked me out of my
deep chasm of antipathy
by having Angelina Jolie
blythly state something like,
"every person has two sides,
you have to embrace both, if you love them."

how dare Hollywood speak such profound truth
and do it so nonchalantly?
it's not right, i tell you.
i mean, i knew this already.
and i knew i was being a big, fat
hypocrite,
and
an ass, to boot,
but i didn't care.
i went to see this movie
so i could forget about my recent goal
to apply unconditional love
to everyone, including myself,
and my almost instantaneous epic failure.
but i was basking in my anger,
with all its self-righteousness,
and enjoying it.
of course, i can never fool myself for long.
i knew i would eventually
see the light
and realize
that if this hypocritcal writer
deserves love,
and i know i do,
then, so does that one.
i was not prepared for the immediate change of heart, however.
i figured it'd take a week or two to get over myself.
but there in the theater,
it happened the moment i heard that line,
and i was relieved and disappointed
simultaneously.
i mean, who wants to admit to him- or herself
that they are being silly, stubborn, or selfish
when they have invested so much emotional energy
into feeling wronged?
not me.
but here i sit,
fresh and free from
the burning brain of bitterness.
all because of one line.

thank the Universe
i guess

the place where i am

today, i'm in a place i don't understand.
i realize i put myself here,
but i cannot, for the life of me,
figure out why.

i put myself in the position
where i am under someone's authority
who doesn't trust me,
doesn't listen to me,
and barely tolerates me.

i try to explain to the person
i do not like
this treatment,
and the response is,
"then, leave."
yet, i have made it so i cannot leave.
i can leave the room, or the building,
but not the city or state,
and that is what i really
want to do right now...
why would a person
do this to himself?

i can only find the answer inside...
when i discover it i'll let you know.

If God is everywhere present

then
how
can
we
be
separated
from
her/him?

So are we him/her/it?

If God is All Power
s/he is my power

Am I one
with my power?

Get back to me on that when you have time.

Maybe

the Universe
kinda drifts
in & out
of nothingness,
like sometimes
we're the noodle
sometimes
we're the soup.

I intended to help

someone
& so i did
& we both felt better.
Is that sick
or what?

Somethin' exploded

&
here we are
&
somethin' else'll
prob'ly
explode one day
soon &
we'll all be
bye bye.
But for now,
let's all enjoy
the ride together.
Wha'd'ya say?