the place where i am

today, i'm in a place i don't understand.
i realize i put myself here,
but i cannot, for the life of me,
figure out why.

i put myself in the position
where i am under someone's authority
who doesn't trust me,
doesn't listen to me,
and barely tolerates me.

i try to explain to the person
i do not like
this treatment,
and the response is,
"then, leave."
yet, i have made it so i cannot leave.
i can leave the room, or the building,
but not the city or state,
and that is what i really
want to do right now...
why would a person
do this to himself?

i can only find the answer inside...
when i discover it i'll let you know.