I gave myself permission

to be wonderful today
Sure I'll probably still feel small
at times
and at times I'll be
a little too big for my britches
and maybe I'll cry
when others are laughing
or sigh when
people think i should
shout
maybe I'll giggle
when the priest drops the
bread into the wine
or chortle
when the funeral procession winds
past my window
but it'll be because
I know it's all a dream
We'll wake up from the
nightmare one day & say
Yea & then
realize a new one has begun.